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Launching FromGirltoGirl.com

It's official! New blog has been launched and I expect amazing things out of it! Inshallah, It will be a success! FromGirltoGirl is my new blog( it is on my following list! It is honest, useful and informative talk amongst girls and women alike! There is a person who has been there and done that. Or a person in your shoes, with answers to your personal and simply being out of curiosity questions!

Ask and you will get an answer to better yourself and your life! Enjoy. I am so excited! Many good things will be coming in the next 4 years of the breelavie launching!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


check out the blog! Enjoy!

THE BLOG: http://fromgirltogirldotcom.blogspot.com/

In the Mind of a young girl by Briana Booker

As I age I realize honesty is the best policy. I understand that you can't make anyone want to do something. You can't make anyone want to change. It has been one of the hardest realizations for me when it comes to the concept of love. I always wanted to be enough,but then I realized I am enough. The problems we all have in relationships come from how we perceive and hope things will be. But to smell and feel the truth takes off so much stressful weight. I wrote to someone I loved the following, hoping it would open both of our eyes. Things didn't start out picture perfect, they might not not end up picture perfect, but it was worth the try.

Inshallah, things will be fine and we can laugh about it later. It is about one of the realest things I wrote. Instead of feeling foolish or a failure, a huge weight has been taken off my chest. I feel free because I have said all the truth I can say. The truth has set me free,and the person can take it for what it is worth. I can only make myself happy and aid to another's happiness. Internal and external demons of the soul and our perception of life I believe prevents happiness to evolve. Happiness...and no worries, a great place I hope exist somewhere beyond this place where I can see it for my own eyes. Until then, my words have finally spoken for its self.

"Okay,so I know this email might be shocking but it is as honest as I will probably get. I know we have been on an off and on casual fuck buddy relationship. You know it. I know it. However, I have notice the no rules ideal concept of the casual relationship has in fact caused all the intensity and drama without any of the relationship rules. From you checking my phone, when it was just my best friend on the other line. Me wondering are you sleeping with more than just me, and you saying it shouldn't matter. Or telling me it is not. But the bigger question seems to revolve around it because of the fact you say you aren't and yet we have never started solid dating. The big puzzle for me is why or why not this has happened. Been trying to get the answer, but you are the only one that knows the true answer. I will not pass judgment but it would take a huge weight off of me feeling not good enough for you off my chest. I rather hear the truth than keep guessing and comparing myself to others.

Me contemplating and internally struggling with the concept that I must not be what you are looking for in a woman. Where did I mess up? why am I enough for sex,but not enough for company? I don't mean serious right now. I just wonder about company and hanging out( which i thought you wanted when I asked you the first night we were alone. I thought you wanted that because you said hanging out, which trigger me to say, okay we can work on having sex. I felt better having sex because I thought I wouldn't be hurt or used).

He is ashamed of me? Does he worry about an age gap? Do I not please him in bed? Why does his words and actions hurt or bother me? He never said he cared. Play cool like you always do Bree. However, It was always hard to play cool with you. I was never sure of limits or boundaries. My care-free experience to sleep with a guy i have been fantasizing sleeping with started to be a nightmare of my own creation.

It was making the no drama ideal experience anything but no drama. Never being able to express anything. Hearing you say it is not that type of relationship when I ask how are you or what are you doing today, want to hangout. Never seeing a friendly text or a surprise phone call to see how I am made me think the excitement was over. He isn't pursuing me, why not?

The rule of no one being able to say " I'm falling in love with you," and no one being able to say " You're hurting me," started to kill me inside. I started to feel ashamed at my actions and words. I was being foolish. Why should I hide how I feel? If I am into him. Why can't i say I am into him?

Instead I make goofy, overly dramatic gestures...like asking for everything I gave you back. Calling you names I don't want to call you. Comparing myself to women you might have been with...wondering why I was not getting your interest enough for you to flirt at me, call me hot. Want to hangout and see me.

You think I am too young. You think being away from me is for the best. You have told me " I am not what you want or need at the moment." I am telling you that I have accepted that there is never a "perfect time" to fall in love. There is never a perfect time to give something a serious go. There can be only a true effort and willingness to give it a chance. Be able to reach for the stars and also ready to fall on your face and dust off, if it must be. I am ready for that.

Unlike hooking up, seeking a long-term connection made me feel trapped.

I felt trapped growing up in high school and my early college years. I have always felt a bit vulnerable letting people in because those same people end up hurting me. But then, I met you and I wanted things to work out. I didn't have loose strings. I was ready for a fresh start. I get you might not have been. I understand you might have felt trapped dating people. See it as a responsibility. I am not asking for wedding bells right now. I am asking for enjoyable sex and good company.

I think right now you could use that type of joy. You work long hours and you seem exhausted. I do not think you need anything too serious at the moment. But I would like to date you( one step at a time). Show you that life can still be enjoyable. I will not crap your style. I just want you to be honest and in return I will be honest to you. Things deserve a chance though, without the suspicion and guessing games. Set small small rules(just as society must) and things will flow better. we have never set any boundaries and the free-all is making things not work too great.

For things to be enjoyable for both of us we both need to be honest and really come clean about what we want. If you want something that can be dating but not to the serious point of commitment, you need to tell me. If you need a in between you need to tell me. If want something serious, you would need to tell me as while. I can not read minds but I am willing to be flexible for things to work with us/ for us.

I understand that you may or may not want the same things I want. And I have prepared to let you go, if our differences are too great. It will never work if we can't balance things out. I feel it is better to be honest with myself and you and find out where things stand than live in casual relationship purgatory. The no rules, no meaning sex gets old. It has gotten old for me. I would like to talk and tell you where I stand. I'd like you to tell me where you stand at this moment in life...your present stature of wants and needs. I think there is no better time than now. The issue has been avoided for a longtime and it is best we just settle things. You can speak first or me. How ever you would like it. We'll go from there."

I feel free of my cage. I feel free to sing. I am not caged,but a free bird at last.

Special Delivery lyrics By Briana Booker

Special Delivery

Chorus
So let me hit you off with my special delivery.
Pack it. Cock it. Extra clips every time.
I’ll reload and explode so my haters can feel the heat.
So let me break you off with my special delivery.


Verse 1
Daddy always told me to aim for the top.
Mama always told me don’t ever settle for less than my worth.
But yes, I must admit,
It took some mistakes and growing a back-bone, to get to the point where I understood every word of their wisdom.

Verse 2
I’m tried of being on the ground, the ground is boring,
I’m ready to be a sun; the low-life bullshit just ain’t cutting it.
God gave me a gift that I’m ready to unwrap. Take the world for a spin. I’m ready to go up to bat.

Verse 3
I gotta lotta haters. I gotta lotta of fans. Neither stops my hunger, my mission to be the best.
The best at this lyrical Jazz flow,
The realest and illiest bitch on this platform.

Verse 4
21, they tell me the sky is the limit, I believe it. I know I’m my only limit.
I love the assholes and the bitches, God created them to keep up my persistence,
at my dreams,
at my life,
I’ll never stop aiming towards my ambitions.

Verse 5
I laugh at the clowns. I wave at the tricks. I glance at the instigators; I’m ready to get rich.

Verse 6
Shy girl from Bmore, that’s what I use to be.
Now I’m all Breezy baby, you’re guilty pleasure is me.
I’m a gift, I’m a curse to your world.
I’m not just your average. I’m no ordinary girl.

Chorus
So let me hit you off with my special delivery.
Pack it. Cock it. Extra clips every time.
I’ll reload and explode so my haters can feel the heat.
So let me break you off with my special delivery.

So let me break you off with my special delivery.
I’m ready to flow, I’m ready to blow. Feel the rush, when you puff on my special delivery. Start runnin because I’m comin.

sounds so beautiful!

Michael Jackson Passes away.

This was so shocking and sad for me to hear. I pray his soul has peace with God. He was sensational. Rest in peace.

I wrote more at my blog:

http://breelavie.today.com/2009/06/25/memory-of-the-king-of-pop-michael-jackson-passes-away/

Ready to settle down...

I feel more and more each day ready to start up whatever life i have left. Much has changed since I had left high school. I feel as if I am really getting old. I never really thought I was until now when I see people starting families, dying, getting married. Now, I am contemplating the same things. I am ready to share my life with the guy I love. I am not saying marriage yet,but I am getting feelings to make a life with him. This life includes possibly moving in with him in a year or two. It sounds even more appealing when I think of my share of rent with my roomies and seeing that I can pay the same,maybe less, living in a place with him. It would be our home. It is a nice feeling to think about,but it's just a thought. I kinda believe he is starting to think so as well from telling me he liked the paint job in my apt 3 times so far. Asking about my rent share. Saying hmmmm,really when I said i would be living here for 2yrs(my expected graduation).

I feel even when we argue that he is the one I want to spend my days here on earth until I see what's after this and hopefully once again see my brother someday.


I missed him much today. I was just thinking all day. What a life.

I don't know why

i felt like singing during my lunch break today! Enjoy!

Thoughts from the past:

So I was skimming old facebook messages, and some of the things I say to people made me think of what's the same and different with me since a year ago. I'd like to share my words.

I was talking about my major to someone and how I want to head to the middle east:
"
for example, the subsahara holds the lives of many people of diverse backgrounds, culture and religions. However, these small groups of corrupt power hold the lives of millions of people. they rather invest in greed and evil then building up a stable economy and tryin to get people to work together,but since history between the countries are filled with mistrust and betrayal the countries don't work together to be educated or a powerful force in the world. and the disputes the world has about things are just so pointless- if you knew the laws and things people fight over you might think it's the dumbest crap that causes the world to be so messed up right now.

I don't know...i just look at life and dissect matters- and make my opinion of it. i have made conclusions on things:
1. money doesn't make happiness,but it keeps you socially comfortable.
2. if everyone were more blunt about things the world would be a better place. disguising the truth just causes problems later. more than with the truth coming out before hand.
3.life is a constant cycle,and a cycle is never ending. which, i know this sounds morbid,but, there's not a real reason to fear death. i'm not going to lie- i fear the pain that comes before death,but not the actual matter of death. i mean, if i go somewhere else...that would be cool, perhaps,but if there was no longer an individual me- i still exist,just in a difference sense. the body is an energy source, just a part of the universe. i think if i ever get to a point of existence where i stop being individually selfish- that's having real peace and i believe grasping the idea of existing and yet not existing is something hard to grasp.

like did you know most things in the universe-this world have a mathematical beauty to them. and supposedly even in chaos there remains order...or it's a theory that there is some universal order to everything. I believe in it.

i don't know- life if crafted or just a random motion of event- is beautiful. and the idea of not knowing if it is or is not a beautiful and intricate mistake makes it even more beautiful.

like we only us but a lil percentage of our brain potential but there's so much more the brain has potential to do. and even with this small amount we use of the brain is amazing and beautiful at what it does. everything is used for a reason, even the slightest hair follicle."


saying my plans for the yr. Some happened and others did not! I did get my apt with four people( strangers rather than friends). I passed spanish but not with flying colors. My brother passed away,but maybe the world has a way to twist things where we all will be happy and together again, someway, somehow.

"i have to get it done,so no biggie with that. i leave next sat to my apartment. and 19th i have to get my class schedule and books. then a few days after school starts.so, my roommate and I will explore i guess because we're new to d.c for the most part.

yeah, i guess it's cool to look back. most of the time typos and grammar mistakes i notice the most haha.

yeah, i regretted deleting my journal when i realized i use to use privacy entries to save things as a backup for my computer files. but oh well.

well,it's cool to start over. well since it was scary it's a good thing you deleted it.

but yeah, it's true...can't change the past so might as well look at the present and future. i think that's why i find moving away possibly a good thing for me. not to run away from troubles...but try to do something different,perhaps better.

Briana Palabon- Booker
August 6 at 5:03pm
I assume like any major city- fast pace, homeless people, grumpy people, then a few nice people in between. I mean the first time i ever went to d.c there was this cool homeless guy my friends and I saw all the time. he could sing really well and we were like you should go on the apollo or something,ha. but yeah, my friend chrissy was giving him money and i was like stop. we gave him food but he didn't want it so obviously he wasn't doing anything useful with it. But i never saw that many homeless before going there. But where i'll be living is like md,but still d.c area,but too far from baltimore to visit casually. i figure after this yr lease is done to get a place with 4 friends more in inner d.c,but i'm not complaining.

as for homeless people in md, they hold funny signs like "I'm not going to lie-All i want is a beer." then it's like the weird one's that like try to scare you at red lights when it's late at night. But then aren't on every corner and stuff.

md just has crabs, beer, deers, boats and random people,ha. and the way baltimore is set up is that really wealthy people live on the habor then it's like low income. then i guess middle class. then the surrounding counties are middle class to high upperclass,but i give it 10 yrs tops that the city is going move really wealthy people back in the city instead of commuting from the suburbs to the city all day, it's going to make it very convienent just like d.c has made it for the really affulent people to have the metro at their grasp and still live comfortable.

actually, i just figure i could make some money while i am young, if i use my head and network with the right people. and it sounded like a good time to get situated down there while still in school-so it's a leap of faith. i figure if the outcome was worth it eventually."


weird how life works....weirder is prob how death works. If life is a bitch, i don't even want to think what's death's name.

My new Blog

I'm officially a today blogger...please read my articles! It will be on entertainment ranging from books, events, shows, dc , Baltimore and beyond! Enjoy!


http://breelavie.today.com/


p.s- I will be still blogging here on my personal life. :-)

Sweet Revenge By Briana Booker

(drum beat)

what is there to do?
your lies have caught up with you
Now it's your turn to burn
to suffer, there's no return
(guitar and drum combo)

Take your empty words, I won't be like your other fools,
It's time for something new, now you'll be the fool.

(guitar and drum combbo)

First it was love, now it's time for war,
No more disillusions for me,
you've made me who I am to be,

Hiroshima on your ass,
this is our reality now,
the poisons in my soul, now it's time to satisfy my soul

(drums)

Bridge

You, you must be confused
To do the things you do,
to take a woman like me for grated
to be a blind,deaf, dumb fool for you,

You're always looking to satisfy your pleasure,
Your games have finally caught up to you,
Oh, look in the mirror, your body's coming ill,
you're too shallow to see
that you'll always be an asshole,
that's all you'll ever be.

So swallow your pills, don't stop to think now.

Are you having a good time baby?
But don't worry it won't last,
You're moving too fast,
Your mind is filled up with fear,
whose after you next?

For now just enjoy yourself
Don't stay bottled up,
You seem to need some help,
I'll help you end it all...

Now you know the pain,it's creeping from underneath,
I see no more beauty in your eyes, this is my reality.
Let me help push you to the end,
stick the needle in,
seep the poison through your veins,
now it's time for you to feel the pain

The scars are already on my skin,
Caused by only you.

I lost all my love for you,you have fallen from my grace,
now all I have for you, is only sweet revenge.

Feel the craving in your soul, revenge's hand never gets old,
It's too late for us to return, you still haven't learned!

This is the price payed for revenge, now it's us whom burn.


( and they say when you seek revenge, dig two graves....)

I sing when I'm bored

Here are songs i felt like singing after a long day at work. Hope you enjoy them!-BB

Life is but a dream.

Yesterday was my little brother's graduation/my cousin Chrissy's graduation. What a beautiful day! I know my older brother would be so proud. I slept that night and thought he talked to me. He seemed happy JB got through school. It makes me believe life is but a dream and once I wake up from that dream, I'll be with him once again.

Sitting back, I can only appreciate the beauty of life and earth. Life is funny. I will never figure it out.If I had no tomorrow,If this was my last day, I could not say that this place was not beautiful. If heaven doesn't exist, I still couldn't complain. The gift of life itself is amazing. I have seen so many things. I have felt so many things dear to my heart. I am glad I have seen such a beautiful place, with all its flaws and perfections. God is good.

I know my family will always be with me. All my family.

I am glad that I have met so many beautiful and thought provoking people in my life. I don't think they know how much I really love them.

All that day I thought of them starting their lives. All that day I thought of Anthony.

I can't look back but I can look forward and appreciate what I see, feel, taste and just live. What do I have to lose if life is but a dream?

Self-love by Briana Booker

Starin in Briana's eyes,
I contemplate how deep is this love I have you.

It wasn't there before,
and from the start you know I tried,but I only saw tears in your eyes,

rejection turn to love,
stranger turn to best friend,
I saw more in you than ever before,

I know you might think it's strange,but
I'm falling in love with you more and more everyday.

And maybe it's all in my mind,
but every scar and every flaw,
I can finally embrace.

And maybe it's all in my mind
But I'm under your spell,
I can't get enough,
I just fell...

chorus

I just fell for you,
In you I see all my dreams
Don't want nobody but you.
Don't want to be nobody but you.
(I just fell, hey)
I just fell
I just fell in love with you.

You're not too skinny,
You're not too big.
You know how to work what you've got.
You're one of the best gifts I've ever got from God.

You don't need nobody to hold your hand.
You don't need nobody to tell you whom to love.
You walk your own way.

I touch your lips, so you'll hear what I say,
allow me to explain
why I'll never lie again about our love affair.

I'm tried of fighting these feelings,
you're more than enough.
you're my amor,
I just can't get enough.

Your legs are finally sturdy.
You're graceful in my eyes.
You're beautiful in every shape and form.

I took you for granted once before,
but I'll never go astray again,
baby I'm here to stay in love with you.

We're coming so closely together,
I'm reaching out to taste you,
I just fell, I just fell...

in love with you.

chorus

I just fell for you,
In you I see all my dreams
Don't want nobody but you.
Don't want to be nobody but you.
(I just fell, hey)
I just fell
I just fell in love with you.

instrumental...


i just fell.

Living in the name of love( memory of Anthony).

dreamin of all the memories,
there's no where I'd rather be than with you,
oh brother, i miss you.

i remember when we were young,
you always came to rescue me
from all my fears.
oh, brother, i thank you.


I miss you everyday I open my eyes to the,
to the sun.
Prayin that one day again, I'll be with you.

So now,I've learn from missing you to...

chorus
live in, in the name of love, oh brother,
so i'm giving and living in the name of love.
Oh darlin.

no matter what I do,
I'll never forget about you.

No matter how long I may live,
I'll never forget the scent of your hair,
your smile that brighten all my days,
I'll never forget your sacrifices,
I'll never forget the love you shared.
Or the music that you played.
I'll always be with you, oh brother.

I dream about you everyday,
see you in my dreams when I pray,
I miss you, you know I do, oh brother.

So I'm....

chorus
livin in, in the name of love, oh brother,
so i'm giving and living in the name of love.
Oh darlin.2x

Real love by Briana Booker

I never knew that, we could be that.
A love that could last,last forever.


I use to worry we could never be that.
That love that could last,last a lifetime.


We've crossed seas that I could never,
believe we could ever get through.

We've out last famines.
We've out last the storm.

who would've thought that we could ever be that.


chorus

sometimes love,
real love,
can find it's way
to your heart,
and break those walls down,
that were build by a broken heart.


who would've thought that you could be that,
that man down for me for whatever.

could've ever guess i was the one for you.
leave your games and fall in love?

I never knew we could be real.
I would've never knew, not even after 100 years.

I gave up on finding love,
but you rose up like the sun,
and embraced my flaws.

and you still loved,
through it all, and found real love after all.



chorus

sometimes love,
real love,
can find it's way
to your heart,
and break those walls down,
that were build by a broken heart.

real love, thank you.
thank you for mending my heart.
love, real love, it can come out
through it alll.



chorus

sometimes love,
real love,
can find it's way
to your heart,
and break those walls down,
that were build by a broken heart.

Dear Mr.Jazz Smooth( the first flight)

Dear mr. jazz smooth,
play me a jam,
a jam that will make me spread my wings for you.

do anything to me, bring me to ecstasy,
make me whine like a guitar,
teach me true bliss,
(come taste my kiss).

you are the one who can teach me the way to move
Make tears come to my eyes,
make my flower bloom.

I do not cry out of pain but true delight.


Please don't be mad,because if you had more common sense,
I would've have never came across true bliss.


oooooo dear mr. ecstasy
ooooo,dear mr. fantasy
ooooo, dear mr. jazz smooth.


Dear mr. jazz smooth,
play me a jam,
a jam that will make me spread my wings for you.

instrumental

dear mr. jazz smooth,
let me play out your fantasy,
i'm a fiend for you.

Don't be mad because i'm the girl next store.
I'm glad you helped me spread my wings for you.


oooooo dear mr. ecstasy
ooooo,dear mr. fantasy
ooooo, dear mr. jazz smooth.

Please don't be mad,because if you had more common sense,
I would've have never came across true bliss.

I feel pain,

I feel pleasure,

I feel everything inside.


thank you mr. fantasy,
thank you mr.radio,
thank you mr. fantasy,

thank you mr. jazz smooth....


spread...my wings...for you, you too and you.

show the way to love by Briana Booker

( music at the beginning)


I can't show you the road to yesterday,
when this romance first began,
but I can show you that we can still grow,
in fact, even better than before.

Honesty and respect is the key.
If you let me in,just a bit,
I'm sure I can find my way, my way back to your heart.

chorus

Let me show you,
I can be your everything,
let me show you that I can bring out your best.
Let me open your soul to a world you have never known. 2x

Let me show you something you can only see.
I've been waiting for you to be ready for this,
you make me whole, you just don't know,
how much you mean to me.


I'd climb mountains,
I'd go through any deserts,
I'd swim seas for you,
I'd give my life for you,
I'd live my life with you.


chorus

Let me show you,
I can be your everything,
let me show you that I can bring out your best.
Let me open your soul to a world you have never known.



let just show you baby,
let me show you, you need no more.


love is divine,
it's a gift from God.
You just have to receive it and it will be.

let me show you the way to go...

why can't you say by Briana Booker

lala,la,la,la,la

my heart needs to know.
my mind needs to comprehend,
why you can't say and mean,
the three words that i seek.

how can you share yourself,
with a person that you can't say it to.

I have heard many times before,
that men will say anything to get it from you.

But we have been down that road many times before.
we have already crossed the line,and keep coming back for more.


chorus

why can't you say that you love me.
why can't you be my one and only.
why can't you just say that you love me?

is it really that hard or do you not say it, because you can't mean it at all?


we fuss and fight like lovers do.
we know how to make love all night and day.
when you look at me it feels like love.
and when you touch me, i have no doubt, that it is love.

however, i am still perplex, why you can't say it, without regret.

chorus

why can't you say that you love me.
why can't you be my one and only.
why can't you just say that you love me?

is it really that hard or do you not say it, because you can't mean it at all?


why do you seek my affection?
why do you seek my devotion?
why do you seek my touch?
yet you don't have the guts to say it at all?

are you afraid i won't say it back?
are you afraid you'll lose me once you say...
you say, that you love meeeeeeeee!




chorus

why can't you say that you love me.
why can't you be my one and only.
why can't you just say that you love me?

is it really that hard or do you not say it, because you can't mean it at all?

A talk with God?

Saturday(yesterday), was such a beautiful day! It was perfect weather outside! But that's not the point of this post. I have often been told it's possible to have conversations with God through other instruments, even people. I was randomly walking up nebreska st,nw dc looking for a place with a google map. On the way, a woman stopped me because she noticed I had a map. She asked where fort st nw was located. We looked on my google map and realized she was going the completely opposite way! So, we ended up walking the same direction, her, her bike and me. She started to have a conversation with me. It was rather interesting, she took my major,international studies in undergrad and she is now in her first year of graduate school(2 yr program). She told me she lived in capitol hill(very expensive area). I had to ask what she took up, on the count being employed and keeping a job is getting harder everyday. I miss the days of certainty. I miss everything I used to have and took for granted. I hate how that saying that the grass is not necessarily greener on the other side. Jeez.

Anyways, I have been contemplating whether to specialize in south america or the middle east. I got an answer from this woman, named Elizabeth. I felt like God made us meet that day and he gave me an answer through her. I felt as if the occassion was important. I felt that it gave me direction. I felt as if, for once, I was not that lost, even if I had a map trying to find my way. I felt God was guiding me on my way. It felt beautiful.

It has been on my mind ever since...but we'll see where my path leads me. Tomorrow is never expected but we're told during our today to think ahead. How strange.


Thinking ahead, I am counting the days until I visit my hometown once again. I hope good things come on this trip home, hmm.

worth it

Chorus

find, find a love.
find a love just for you.
find someone who makes it worth it. 2x



where are you?
my love where are you?
I've been missing you so much.

My heart has been softly sending signs.

I feel as if I can reach the stars,
when I'm with you.

ooooooo,ooooooo,ooooo.


Do you ever think, there's someone made just for you?
Just for you?


And when you wake,
you find that nothings fake,

about this love, about this life you live. 2x.

If not, I hope you find it.


Chorus

find, find a love.
find a love just for you.
find someone who makes it worth it. 2x

God's child(violin and piano)

Hey,mmmmmmmmmmhm,laalala

God's child will come to save me...

ooooh,oooooo.


I've been here,
looking for you,
searching the world,
for somewhere I belong.


Chorus

Hey God's child,
will you call for me,
can you please come down and save me. 2x

Please.


I've been lost.
Now I am looking to be discovered.
My spirit longs for you,more than ever.


Chorus

Hey God's child,
will you call for me,
can you please come down and save me. 4x

Please.

(piano)

Chorus

Hey God's child,
will you call for me,
can you please come down and save me. 4x

(violin)


Bridge

Hello, hello,
Can you please set my soul free.
God's Child, I'm callin for you.
Take me as a souvenir, when you come to save us.


Make me an instrument.
Make me an art.
Make me a souvenir, when you come to save us.


(violin)

advice i gave to a friend...

a friend asked how can you learn to enjoy life?

i thought of how i was in the same situation. I wanted life to become happy for me on its own. i learned life doesn't work that way. It's more than that. It's about learning to accept myself. So, i wrote to my friend the following, hoping it could help him out a bit:


you have to be your own drive. you have to learn to really love you. and you have to not worry about what everyone wants of you. you have to do things that make you feel whole. and stop worrying about lil shit. life is just a ride, enjoy it. you don't know how long it will be...so appreciate it for what it is, that's all i can say. that's all i have learned from personal experience. hope it helps.

Hey stranger

ooooooo, hmmmmmmm, ba-ba,ba-da, oooooooo (repeat 2x)

Hey stranger,
how've you been?

Long time, no see, my best friend.

I've been thinking about you.
I've even seen you in my dreams.
But I forget the last time we've met, the last time,time, you've been near.

Is tonight, the night we meet again, my friend?

chorus
Hey stranger,
how've you been?
You look just as amazing as the first time we met.
Same feelings, just a change in time.
Longing to touch you, wanting to kiss you,
just one more time again.
I still wanna see you, I still wanna see you.

(Guitar plays solo)

[male voice]
Hey beautiful stranger,
how've you been?
Shall we do this, once again?


[Both]

Hey stranger, I'm glad you're here.
I still wanna see, baby I still long for you to be near.

(guitar plays)

i'm movin on

lets see how yall jam to this one,
Alright

I'm so tired of your games,
You don't know how to treat a lady,

See every chance I give to you
You've got to mess up with Tamia,Lauren, Paulina, & Tyra

why can't the drama miss us, sometimes
Baby,I've been having your past on my mind
For a long,long time
I just want it to be
only You and me
why, can't it be?

It's because you don't know how to act
so, i'm peacin out.

(chorus)

And I'm movin on
(call them)
tell them ho's to come on,take care where i left off.
(call them)
And tell them I've moved on.

Now everytime I ask you am i the only one?
you say if i'm askin, i should move on,
but later in the night you ask me for some ass.
Motherfucker, i'm not the one to test.
I'm not one of those bitches that don't last.

I'm Briana. I'm always for real
shit,you need to get the deal.

Every time we go somewhere
I gotta hear about them ho's
that you pay drinks for and grab their bootys too,
from not only your cousins but homeboys down the way

They dont ever pay their own way
They dont have no cars
stay hanging around them bars
Tryin to become a star
Like breezy
Im gon tell you the truth
you need to improve,
or stay a fool. so please show and improve.

or...


chorus

I'm movin on
(so call them)
and tell them ho's to take care where i left off
Help you with your bullshit.

I'm movin on...
and baby, I won't be comin back home.

Da mon by lyrics

i was walkin down the street
and i met a man,
he called himself da mon.

da mon caught my eye, or moreso my
ears. he made his music cry.


so i asked him, why are you da mon?


Chorus
da mon, da mon, da mon,
da mon, da mon, da mon,
are you really da mon?

da mon laughed. he says today, tomorrow, and yesterday
he has always been da mon.
respect is where i come from,
respect is what i am.

i don't need fancy shoes.
i don't need a fast car.
I'm just the da mon who
plays the blues on his guitar.


so i asked, can you play for me?

please...


Chorus
da mon, da mon, da mon,
da mon, da mon, da mon,
are you really da mon?


da mon,hands were not beautiful,
nor were they soft.
However, they really could jam the blues on his guitar.

Chorus
da mon, da mon, da mon,
da mon, da mon, da mon,
are you really da mon?



there i heard the pain of 1,000 years.
there i saw the tears of a lovers lost.
there i saw a man who forgot his name...
he forgot his pain. so, learn to accept...da mon.


Chorus
da mon, da mon, da mon,
da mon, da mon, da mon,
are you really da mon?

Fans?!

So today, i realized i had a few fans that are not my friends or family. eh, it was nice to see; however, i hope my fans enjoy my potential music more than my looks. But I'll take it for now!




May 27, 2009 5:54 PM
You are... so beautiful, very sexxxy and all the way hot!!! You have the most beautifulest smile i've seen in a long time; so big and bright! Thanks for being my friend!!

Show lyrics by Briana Booker

verse
They may say I’m too young,
To let you know my emotions and thoughts,
But I know and I will show,
It’s just a matter of time, before I’ll make you mine.
verse
I’m living in a world full of uncertainty,
Everyone seems so corrupt
But there’s nothing wrong, I’ve been told,
It’s alright.
Verse
They criticize the way we carry on,
The people out there don’t understand,
That I need no words to show him who I am.
Chorus
I let him feel,how I feel.
To show him that I’m real.
I give him all that he needs to feel,
To let him know that how I feel is real.
versus
I don’t need to write a love letter.
Or base our hopes on material things.
No, no, that’s not my game.
Only in dreams, most men, hope to gain.
What I give my man everyday.
Chorus
I let him feel,how I feel.
To show him that I’m real.
I give him all that he needs to feel,
To let him know that how I feel is real.
Verse
Real dreams do come true
He knows it’s real, when he can feel.
Verse
No words need to be spoken.
No rules need to be drilled.
All I need to do is give him something he can feel.
So that he knows my heart is real.
Chorus
I let him feel,how I feel.
To show him that I’m real.
I give him all that he needs to feel,
To let him know that how I feel is real.
verse
Body language never lies.
Nor do the eyes.
He can see the window of my soul,
Only when I show him the way to go.

Chorus
I let him feel,how I feel.
To show him that I’m real.
I give him all that he needs to feel,
To let him know that how I feel is real.
This is real. This is real

Bmore Kisses

I moved to Washington,dc, but when I was in Bmore, you'd rarely come around to see me,
Now, since I'm in the big city, you're worried that my eyes no longer see thee.
I see now you're following my tracks, when you're usually playing hard to get.

chorus

But I always accept those bmore kisses from you
Always accept those bmore kisses from you

Baby, I will always accept those bmore kisses from you.

Now I love to feel those warm,wet kisses from you,
they remind me of the warm summer rain,
just to feel your touch to my lips,
makes any attitude i have towards you crumble to bits,

Not to mention,when you call my name your voice is the Sweetest sounding thing
I could ever imagine heaven sent my way

so I'll...

chorus 2

always accept those bmore kisses from you
Always accept those bmore kisses from you



Now I know we've been on and off for the past two yrs,
but everytime i'm with you, I always seem to forget,
all the drama between us two,
Both of us saying, oh we didn't mean that,and hoping one day we'll say I do.

Baby, I love you,even if you're a lil wack....

chorus

But I'll always accept those bmore kisses from you
Always accept those bmore kisses from you

runnin from love lyrics Briana Booker

Chorus

I'm afraid, I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid, I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid of what you'll make me do.
I'm afraid of fallin in and out of love with you.

I've heard before you make wrong, look right.
I've heard you'll make me sacrifice.
I've heard you'll make me even cry.
I've heard you can make me feel broke inside.

I've heard you're the link between life and death.
I've heard you're an addiction I'll never forget.
I've heard I can't live without you.
I've heard I'll never give without you.

So,before I begin, I'm runnin away from you because...

Chorus

I'm afraid, I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid, I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid of what you'll make me do.
I'm afraid of fallin in and out of love with you.


I've heard you'll make me sing the blues.
I've heard you'll make me ask is it a crime?
I've heard you'll make my name be beauty.
I've heard you'll make me say i can never say goodbye.


tell me something I have missed.
tell me all the pain you cause, I can resist.
tell me I won't have to give my all.
tell me you won't make me cry to my favorite song.

this i why...


Chorus

I'm afraid, I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid, I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid of what you'll make me do.
I'm afraid of fallin in and out of love with you.

But I'll take a chance,
just one kiss,
just one romance.

In name of you, even if I'm afraid of you.


words fading ( love) ...I'm...afraid...of...you.
love,love, in and out. love i'm afraid of you.

Bobobo-bo bo-bobo

yay!I got to see my guy today! It was surprising! He was making sketchy conversation with my roommate though. I was happy to see him! Maybe things will turn out fine, just some effort. Oh,and my parents giving him a chance. But he has to mature a bit.


But he worked at a bakery before and he seems to watch random Japanese cartoon? I never knew that before....haha, just proves guys still keep their inner child.



http://www.veoh.com/collection/boboboanime/watch/v1377386ekeDbjMZ

Pretty wings

I thought I post some pictures from my walk today! So beautiful is this world when you stand back and just see it for what it is-beauty.

I know.

I went on a nature run/walk for 3hrs. Just going, not really knowing exactly where. It was great! It made me think, very much. I want someone back in my life,but I have changed in a positive way. I'm afraid if the person hasn't changed att all, no growth, i might drag myself back to a place I never want to go back to again. A place where I thought there was something missing, something i was doing horribly wrong. My dad told me never turn back.

I listened to the ciara song never ever. I love ciara's music! well, i'm trying to figure out if he does care or not. I have not had the best luck with men. I always think a little larger and I can easily stay loyal to a guy who treats me right. I stay loyal to the one's that don't deserve it as well. It's time to look for better. Actually my father says just keep myself together and a good man will come. I feel i have been mentally and physically kept together in general. I still haven't found a guy who cares, not just for my body. I am only bringing a guy to meet my family when I feel that love is mutual.

I'm worried giving him a chance might relapse me to a time I hated myself and felt I wasn't enough. I don't want that. But i realize I am the only one who allowed myself in that predicament. I am in control of my life! So, I hope I can bring him in my life. He says there isn't anyone else and I believe him this time! I really do. I don't know if that's love but it's a step. I hope my father is wrong and that he is worth my time. :-)

Looking for where I started from...

Tomorrow is my first workout day in awhile! I use to take dance and run a bit. I feel since highschool I have lost all my energy and drive. Well,I'm ready to kick ass again and get my divah,cocky behind back in action!

I wanted to grow up so fast when I was a little girl. Thinking the older I got I could escape certain things that I was sad or not satisfied with in my life. Now, I realize childhood was one of the most happiest times of my life! It had it's bad and rough times,but sometimes the past is something I look fondly upon.

I miss my brothers. I miss my parents. I miss being able to get whatever I wanted without worrying about money.Now, those days are gone. Nothing will be the same. I can only smile and say I am glad I have the memories. Now, I have to finish my life adventure. Enjoy the moment.

I lost my drive in the past 2 yrs and now I am back in action. I want to be the best me I can be spiritually, mentally and physically.


Tonight I am reading up on a few bible scriptures.The stories are rather interesting when you understand the lessons and realize the stories can be useful to your life journey. The King James version confuses me with wordings so I kinda have a Bibles for dummies. Hahaha. It's great!

Tomorrow I am working out! Not to mention I travel a little over 4 miles going to work!So I'm definately working myself. It feels great whether running or walking.


Things are changing like the seasons. I will be visiting Delaware and upstate New York as often as I can starting fall. My lil brother and my cousin will be going to college. I am so proud of them.


In addition, I am happy I have finally declared my major!I have been at the bottom often and now I can only look up! God is good. :-)


So my advice for the day is be your own mascot! Be your own drive! And always stay humble and kind to others. There is no reason to do anything other than that. :-)

Never settle for less!

Hello. Today I was looking on tyra banks' website just out of boredom. I saw an amazing blog post by Kendall. It is so true, how to stay fierce! She talks about getting what you want and not just what men want out of a relationship! Never settle for less than what you think you deserve! I have learned the hard way that settling for less never works as planned! I'm learning to love myself and if a guy isn't worth my time, I have learned to drop it and move on.

http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com/single_fierce/kendall/how_to_stay_fierce.php?adid=052509_single



the article above is I highly recommend to read. It said to write a list of things looking for in a significant other. I thought I should write one! I had a joking list when I was in highschool,but this is my serious list. I'm not getting any younger and someday I would like to have a family of my own. I'd like to experience motherhood. I'd like to be married, if God wills me to be! SO, here is my list of things I look for in a man:


1.Intelligence: I have learned that no one can take that away from you!Two people can do amazing things together when wits, logic skills and positive ambitions come together. Just look at President Obama and First lady Mrs. Obama!


2. Optimistic: I do not want a gloomy person who always looks down about everything. If you don't think you can do it, who will?

3. A realist: Look at things for what they may be and then take the situation and make the best of it.

4. Keep real: I have learned the hard way the truth shall set you free. Usually, lying takes more effort and if someone can't handle the truth about you, what you do, or anything about you,it's time to move on. The truth is what it is and there is no better feeling than stating or doing all you can do! So refreshing!

5. Sense of Humor: I am one who likes to enjoy life! I know there is a time to be serious and a time to just have fun! I'd like a guy who can make a joke even if things don't look bright. It reassures me we can make it through the good and bad times.

6. A MAN WHO RESPECTS HIS MAMA! This is crucial! If a guy treats his mama like shit, he will treat you much worse. A guy's mama is his first love. Don't forget it.

7. A man who keeps himself together: You don't want to live with a really messy person. You don't want a guy who doesn't stay clean, esp if he wants you to be intimate with him. Yes, he can fart,but I'm not going downtown if a guy isn't clean. No way in hell. lol.

8. A guy who knows when it's time for sex and when it's time for bonding. Sex is great but sex does not make a completely satisfying relationship by itself. A quiet night with wine and conversation works! A night just watching tv or cooking together works. Walking around town works. Sex can be before or after,but if a guy wants my heart he has to intellectually stimulate me. It's something really attractive about a guy who is clever to me.

9. A guy who has a good work ethic works too!


10. A guy who keeps his body in shape! I like tall guys and guys with a lil muscle to them. You don't have to be steroid though, i find that not attractive.

11. He has to love track,football or tennis! I'm a big fan of those 3.

12. He has to love my body and mind,nothing more or less.

13. He has to be good with kids and puppies. My 2 favorite things and I just want children one day! :-)


okay that's it for now. Peace.

I'm for real

I feel as if I'm finally starting to grow up. Things have changed quite a bit physically and mentally with me. I recently cut 20 yrs of hair of my head. I'm going back to natural, and it feels good. I know it's just hair but it was kind of a physical transformation that shows I'm making my own decisions. I had my first chemical treatment to make my hair straight in the 3rd or 2nd grade. It feels nice to begin to peel off the layers of a world I wanted to fit in and see the world and person I am underneath it all.

Not only has my hair changed,but my attitude about things. I am beginning to work out again and I don't see someone lost and confused when I look in the mirror in the morning. I see no longer a girl but a young woman.

I'm searching for God. I'm searching for myself. I'm searching for peace.


I know that no one but me can stop myself now. I have everything before me, and at the sometime, nothing at all. I just want to live life until I can't live it anymore. I use to want to get life over with because I wasn't happy with outcomes.

Losing Anthony,my brother made me change my whole outlook on life. I want to strive to be the best me. I want do what I love. I want to speak my mind. I want to be Briana. It feels good to finally accept myself for me. I am beauty,even if I don't fit the norm. I am beautiful because I am me.


And this weekend I finally declared my major. International studies with a minor in Justice,formally. Now, I will bust my ass to be the best at what I love. Fighting for a purpose and opportunity! I know I have this because I'm finally trusting my creator.

Have a great weekend!

this is real By Briana Booker

verse
They may say I’m too young,
To let you know my emotions and thoughts,
But I know and I will show,
It’s just a matter of time, before I’ll make you mine.
verse
I’m living in a world full of uncertainty,
Everyone seems so corrupt
But there’s nothing wrong, I’ve been told,
It’s alright.
Verse
They criticize the way we carry on,
The people out there don’t understand,
That I need no words to show him who I am.
Chorus
I let him feel,how I feel.
To show him that I’m real.
I give him all that he needs to feel,
To let him know that how I feel is real.
versus
I don’t need to write a love letter.
Or base our hopes on material things.
No, no, that’s not my game.
Only in dreams, most men, hope to gain.
What I give my man everyday.
Chorus
I let him feel,how I feel.
To show him that I’m real.
I give him all that he needs to feel,
To let him know that how I feel is real.
Verse
Real dreams do come true
He knows it’s real, when he can feel.
Verse
No words need to be spoken.
No rules need to be drilled.
All I need to do is give him something he can feel.
So that he knows my heart is real.
Chorus
I let him feel,how I feel.
To show him that I’m real.
I give him all that he needs to feel,
To let him know that how I feel is real.
verse
Body language never lies.
Nor do the eyes.
He can see the window of my soul,
Only when I show him the way to go.

Chorus
I let him feel,how I feel.
To show him that I’m real.
I give him all that he needs to feel,
To let him know that how I feel is real.
This is real. This is real

crazy over you by briana booker

crazy over you lyrics briana booker

My love
It feels so true this time around.
I get a rush from his touch.
My emotions are high,
I realize Im immersed in his seduction
Losin my dignity each and every time he's around.
Has my luck, found the perfect guy
Could I have found a true love this time?

Chorus
My love.
Im crazy over you.
So baby please be true.
Ill give my heart to you.
This feels so true, my love.
It feels so true, this time.

verse

So what do I do?
Should I give my heart to you?
It feels so true, this love.

Verse
Steadily we're growing
Im in no rush
Dont worry, I wont push us.
I am not sure what to do, I just can't stop lovin you.
I'm crazy for you.
I can feel it in my soul.
I'm in love.

Chorus
My love.
Im crazy over you.
So baby please be true.
Ill give my heart to you.
This feels so true, my love.
It feels so true, this time.



verse

I hope I'm not dreaming.
I hope you are my dream come true.
I only have thoughts for you.

I don't know what to do.
I'm crazy over you.
you are my dream come true.

Chorus
My love.
Im crazy over you.
So baby please be true.
Ill give my heart to you.
This feels so true, my love.
It feels so true, this time.3x

I love him though by Briana Booker

I want to tell you about my old man,sometimes,
I think he's really crazy.

He is like night and day,black and white.
At the drop of a dime, he goes crazy,but he's still my man.

He likes to get mad way too easily. Lie about the little things.He likes to get into confrontation with me. But I still love him.
I just don't know why,but he's still my baby.

He pushes my buttons to see how far he can go before I lose control.


Chorus
Sometimes, I love him
Sometimes, I hate him.
I love him, although he nags and complains about me. I'll never let him go. Although, he sometimes makes me cry, I'll never let him go.

Next minute, He can be so sweet as can be.
That's why we're together. He says it will be forever.
Then he changes so fast, it can be confusing.

Many times, I have felt like leaving him.
But I'm too deep in love with him, to say goodbye.
One day, I'd like to have his kids,no matter how crazy he gets.
I'm too in love with him, to let him go.

Chorus
Sometimes, I love him
Sometimes, I hate him.
I love him, although he nags and complains about me. I'll never let him go. Although, he sometimes makes me cry, I'll never let him go.


Home is here with him.
I'll never turn my back on him.

Bridge

With him I have grown.
He is home.
I'll never leave his side.

We promised when we met, we never leave each other's side.


Chorus
Sometimes, I love him
Sometimes, I hate him.
I love him, although he nags and complains about me. I'll never let him go. Although, he sometimes makes me cry, I'll never let him go. 2x


I'll always be by his side.

Take a chance(jazzy tune). By Briana Booker

Take a chance ( acoustic and violin).


Baby something about your style
I feel my hearting beating fast,
Wanting to take a chance with you.
You’ve been on my mind.

I love the attention you give to me.
Baby,It feels so good.

I wonder,do you day dream about me as I do, about you?

chorus
I wanna know if there’s a chance for me and you. I do.
I wanna know if you feel the way I do, for you.
Can we take a chance, rather than we say, we can’t, we can’t.
Because, I want you to be, I want you to be, my,my man.

verse
I blush every time I feel your eyes glued on me.
I feel my body tingle every time you touch me.
Longing to have you only for me.
Baby, can we give it go, just for me and you.

chorus
I wanna know if there’s a chance for me and you. I do.
I wanna know if you feel the way I do, for you.
Can we take a chance, rather than we say, we can’t, we can’t.
Because, I want you to be, I want you to be, my,my man.

Bridge

I want to know if there is a chance, a real chance for me and you.
A chance, that we, we can take at least once.
I want you by my side, as mine.
Can you give me what I need?
Should we, can we let our desires be?

chorus
I wanna know if there’s a chance for me and you. I do.
I wanna know if you feel the way I do, for you.
Can we take a chance, rather than we say, we can’t, we can’t.
Because, I want you to be, I want you to be, my,my man.

verse

Can you give me what I need?
Can you take this chance with me?
Tell me you feel the same as I do.

chorus

I wanna know if there’s a chance for me and you. I do.
I wanna know if you feel the way I do, for you.
Can we take a chance, rather than we say, we can’t, we can’t.
Because, I want you to be, I want you to be, my,my man.

we gonna make it lyrics by Briana Booker

We gonna make it
Lyrics by Briana Booker

I hope you listen to every line (singing).
Hello? …Are there? Baby? Hello?(speaking)
To this message (singing).
Well, I guess you’re not there.(speaking)
In our troubled times, (singing)
I Hope you listen to this message,(speaking)
…
Cuz,Baby ,we gonna make it.(singing).

Chorus

In the late night hours I hope you think of me, I hope you crave of we, hope you crave of we.
My baby,
I know we’re in tryin times but we’ll make it.
In the late night hours I hope you think of me,
Still want to grab a taste of me.
My baby, just say it.

Verse
No matter how much we fight,
Our future together still seems bright
I know we’re not perfect,
But we’lll remain together.
Baby,I know you think that I’m too young
But I know you’re the one.

Chorus
In the late night hours I hope you think of me, I hope you crave for we,I hope you crave for we.
My baby,
I know we’re in tryin times but we’ll make it.
In the late night hours I hope you think of me,
Still want to grab a taste of me.
My baby

Verse

Right before you lay down to sleep,
Tell me you still don’t fantasize only about me.
Tell me you don’t still call my name in your dreams.
Wishing I was right there to help you say it.

Chorus

In the late night hours I hope you think of me, I hope you crave of we.
My baby,
I know we’re in tryin times but we’ll make it.
In the late night hours I hope you think of me,
Still want to grab a taste of me.
My baby, just say it.

Versus
Tell me you don’t lust for me.
Make yourself mad that you don’t trust in me.

I hope you can’t say it.
I hope you still dream of me.
Still want a taste of me.

Chorus
In the late night hours I hope you think of me, I hope you crave of we,crave of we.
My baby,
I know we’re in tryin times but we’ll make it.
In the late night hours I hope you think of me,
Still want to grab a taste of me.
My baby

Verse
Touch me.
Kiss me.
Never let me go.
Be the sun.
I’ll be the moon.
Working together until the end.
You’re my only one.

Chorus
In the late night hours I hope you think of me, I hope you crave of we,crave of we.
My baby,
I know we’re in tryin times but we’ll make it.
In the late night hours I hope you think of me,
Still want to grab a taste of me.
My baby


verse
I’ll whisper in your ear every night.
Lay in Bed, by your side.
Satisfy your appetite.
After we argue and fight.

verse

I hope you dream
And when you dream, you dream of me.
Wanting only me.
Sleep walk, searching just for me.

Chorus
In the late night hours I hope you think of me, I hope you crave of we.
My baby,
I know we’re in tryin times but we’ll make it.
In the late night hours I hope you think of me,
Still want to grab a taste of me.
My baby

Just in case you realize ( acoustic guitar) By Briana Booker

I'm not sure what keeps you away,
but please, when you're ready, come back home.

I will be moving on soon.
It would be nice to see or talk to you.

Someday when you're ready, let's take a small step to mend your heart.

chorus

Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you sad.
Just in case you realize i never wanted you gone.
Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you mad.
just in case you realize I never wanted to say goodbye on the phone.



Real love waits. So, I will wait for you.
I know your temper may never change.
I know we won't see eye to eye,all the time.
But I love you. I know I do.

I may have never said it to your face
but my actions have only been out of love for you.
Yes, I know right now you're not ready for someone real in your life.
I know you rather have sex all the time.

chorus

Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you sad.
Just in case you realize i never wanted you gone.
Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you mad.
just in case you realize I never wanted to say goodbye on the phone.



One day you'll rather love and be loved,
even if it is not with me. I hope you see that day.
You're still young in thought about relationships.
That is not good or bad.
It is just a fact.


You think being mean keeps a woman. Nope.
A woman likes to feel safe and trust the man she adores.
Secrets keep that from happening.
I don't know if you were or were not with others, but you still kept me distant.
I love us. At the end of the day, after you run the street, I'd still be there.

I'd be there through anything because I love you.

chorus

Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you sad.
Just in case you realize i never wanted you gone.
Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you mad.
just in case you realize I never wanted to say goodbye on the phone.


I never was with anyone else while with you.
But yes,i went stray after you pushed me away.
I get sad being treated badly by the guy i love.
So, I looked for comfort some other place.
It wasn't love though. I guess the same happened when I made you feel unwanted.
It's not home. You are my home. So...

chorus

Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you sad.
Just in case you realize i never wanted you gone.
Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you mad.
just in case you realize I never wanted to say goodbye on the phone.


I just want us to have a chance.
I was trying last time but I just got so frustrated that you made it seem like I was so unwanted.

I understand but I think you should judge me just as a job would....by finding things other than sex to like about me.

We would have been strong with that communication. It's not too late to start. Think about it.

chorus

Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you sad.
Just in case you realize i never wanted you gone.
Just in case you realize I never wanted to make you mad.
just in case you realize I never wanted to say goodbye on the phone.

Baby,I love.

the one for me By Briana Booker

2mins 37 seconds. sing to the instrumental of slum villiage fall in love.





1...2...1...2(twice)

loves got me hypnotized, mesmerized
taking me on a roller coaster ride
up and down I go

what can i say?

twist and turns
I feel like I'm your voodoo child.

this is insane

what can i do?

I've lost control.
I don't know whether my emotions are coming or going.

I think I need rehab.
I'm addicted to you.

Baby,this goes out to you...

Chorus
And I know this may sound, sound quite crazy,

but I know he is the one for me.

And I can't figure out how this happened,but i know this time it's real.


Battling, Battling.
Not sure whether to trust you.
Your lil black book has got me buggin boo.
But I know for us to last I would have to learn to trust you,

...I lost faith.

so one day i decided to give up on believ-ving
true love exist.
contemplating,if it exist.
not sure,not sure

but no matter how much i resist,

i still can't stop diggin this guy.

Body like greek art, hard as steel.
Intellectual creativity off the chain.

He is what I want. He is what I crave.

style smooth as silk.
lips soft as kleenex.
I fell hard.

No matter how mad I get at this guy...i still see myself
only with him.

I can't believe it...1...2...1...2

Chorus
And I know this may sound, sound quite crazy,

but I know he is the one for me.

And I can't figure out how this happened,but i know this time it's real.



I know, sounds crazy. I know,but it's true.
Yes, i still feel the same way
about you.

We have been through it all
someway,somehow we end up together,

over and over again.

I have even tried moving on with another guy
But still you've got me sprung,
I feel paralyzed.

I don't love him the way I love you.

In you I have met my match.
There is no one who makes me feel safe and whole like you.

It's crazy but the same person who can press all my buttons

can also bring me back down to peace. 1,2...1...2...1...2...1...2

(INSERT RAP SECTION FOR MY COUSIN).

It's refreshing...but i don't know if it's too late to fix things.
I don't know if you think I'm the one.

I just hope this story ends well.

Chorus
And I know this may sound, sound quite crazy,

but I know he is the one for me.

And I can't figure out how this happened,but i know this time it's real.2x

titles for songs

Sugar(lyrics need work on).

Bookerzoso

who is she to you?

love me

the one for me ( lyircs completed)

Bmore girl swag

distant lovers

never again

give trust a try

the jrp blues

last night

the warning

i'm going back to you

justice vs. revenge

the one night


the promise

wishful thinking

the gambler

passion marks

trying to write songs

who would have thought this would be so hard? A song with meaning but catchy enough for people to remember. Right now I am just going to follow basic steps and type titles to make up song lyrics. wish me luck!

Verse: The verses in a song all have the same melody but different lyrics. The verse lyrics give us information about the situation, emotions, or people in the song.
Chorus: We may hear the chorus of a song three, four or more times. The lyric and melody remain the same each time it recurs.The chorus lyrics sums up the heart of the song. The title of the song almost always appears in the chorus section and may be repeated two or more times.

Bridge: The bridge has a different melody, lyrics, and chord progression from the verse or chorus. It provides a break from the repetition of verse and chorus. The lyric often provides an insight or revealing moment.

Pre-chorus: Many of today's hits include a short section at the end of the verse that builds energy, letting the listener know that the chorus is coming. By creating a sense of anticipation, the chorus has even more punch when it finally arrives.

Bookerzoso (potential acoustic song)

I'm fighting, fighting...to survive.
Working,working 9 to 5.

Oh how weary is my mind wondering if i'll live to see tomorrow.
Doctors told me there's a growth, not sure of my tomorrow.

I have just begun to learn to walk.
It was just yesterday I was crawling.

I can't win no matter how much I try.
I am trying to live but not sure how long I can fight.

No one's here to hear my thoughts.
No one understands my anger.
Why me?

chorus

I'm fighting, fighting...to survive.
Working 9 to 5.


I keep on hearing the same song.
No one understands. I'm all alone.
I sit here watching the sunrise, wondering if this will be my last.

I'm accepting my faith. I can feel it in the air. It's calling me back home.

I can't see the way I use to. I can't think the way I did before. Tomorrow is not promised. I can only live for the day.

I see the tears in your eyes. What more can I say? I was trying to make my dreams come true,but they all ended up fading away.

Don't cry for me. I've had some good days and some bad. I'm here to take my fate. Here too, you shall pass.

I'll see you on the other side. It's time for me to ramble to the brighter side of town. Ignore my heavy breathing. Ignore my weary days. Just remember the days I jammed and smiles I brought to you.

Chorus

end

Sugar (my first original jazz song).

Wednesday, January 09, 2008


SUGAR BY BRIANA BOOKER



This is how I feel so Here I go:
Sugar, Sugar when I need it.
Sugar when he grips me tight. He gives me sugar.
Sugar, that I can't, can't really explain,but it turns me on.
And I have got to have it again.

I'm addicted to love. The love that he gives to me. He is, so, so fly I just can't reist.

He gives me sugar. Sugar that I need. Sugar all through the night.

He's a smooth, smooth operator. Smoothier than baby skin.

He's got me feelin, feelin in a daze.

I can't control my heartbeat rates.

sugar, drivin and a pacin'

smooth operator with a good looking face.

he is realer, realer than reality.

I can't get my grip on this.

He gives me, gives me sugar.

Sugar when I need it. Sugar when he holds me tight.

Sugar when I crave it.

I can't explain how he makes me feel.

wait, he has got me feel extraordinary, amazing, spectacular.

I can't explain what he does it's so unnatural.

He has got me movin, feelin remarkable.

and caring less about what I do.

He gives it when I need it. gives it when he feels me right.

It feels so right it just can't be wrong.

Sugar when I need it.

Sugar is where I'm at.

Can't say he has got it wrong when he has it right.

can't get it, can't really embrace it.

can't cool it nor can I boil it.

I don't need a doctor for this.

I got a string I just can't reist.

there is no cure. sugar is where it's at.

he is doing all the right things. I can't say how he does it,but it turns me on.
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the rebound girl (potential song) 7/12/08

Betcha she can’t do it like me.
By Briana Booker
07/12/08

When you close your eyes...do you think of me?
and if so, then why do you pretend…that you don't care for me? That you don’t need me.

when you know damn well
We share a special bond
no one can take from us
because our love is real.
So now I bet you this in return:
I betcha she can’t do it like me.
I betcha she can’t cook like me.
I betcha she can’t ball like me.
I betcha she can’t sass like me.
I betcha she can’t make you laugh.
I betcha she can’t have you weak to the knees.
I betcha she can’t make you moan like me.
I betcha she can’t drive you crazy like me.
I betcha she can’t ask you can you handle this?
I betcha she can’t make you say…you want to cater between her knees,haha…orally.
I betcha she can’t make you sprung like me.
I betcha she can’t say you’ll do it everyday.
I betcha you can’t really say that she makes your day.
Because she’s just the rebound girl.
Because you don’t want her like you still want me.


I know you been all around the world,

But still I bet you can't find a girl,
correction,
a woman quite like me
to do the things I do to you.

I know exactly what you need.
And you know you…like it.
And maybe one day…haha, you’ll have it your way.

until then wishing i could change the world(way old journal).

i may be odd,but does anyone look around and go to themselves...what the hell is going on?

I do.

except, i don't know what to do about it.

i watch the news and ponder what's going on everyday. I even ponder to the point where i can't watch it anymore because i don't know what i would do about.

when i was little i wanted to be a superhero one day,but i kind of think that's a figment of my imagination.

Like, i have no clue why a potential genocide is happening in philly. the sad thing is that no one is going to do anything about it. We all just watch stuff like this happen. Yet, tell one another to help stop genocide in other countries. I just find that interesting.

I also find people burning down churches sacrilegious,but i can see the sense of it if it's costing more to repair a church instead of getting the insurance money from it.

And I don't get why i speed to get no where. i must be angry at the way my daily day goes, lol. But it's a waste to be angry...so now, i just do as I please.


next, i don't know why it's so hard to quit things that hurt me and other people. It always seems to be good at the moment and then everything crumbles.

But at least there is one thing that makes sense- dueling banjos...HAHA. It gets me everytime.

a song i wrote to God 7/23/08

actually something i wrote to God...about having faith. and i think i might make it a song soon.

Lyrics to God-faith
By: Briana Booker 07/23/2008
I never felt this way before
What a feeling that you give to me I can't ignore
Lord Your my joy
You truly do enlighten me
& You’re all I need to get by,
And You’ve got the best of me


Lord,You’ve got me wide open
And I'm feeling you so please keep it coming
Truly and deep sent from your majesty
tell me can you feel me, can hear me?

I can feel everything that you do
And everything that I might go through
I can't believe that we're here this way
I wanna have faith in you everyday

My life is yours, And everything we do, we gonna be... just fine
It's not by mistake, ooh Lord I’d never walk away from your faith.

I never felt this way before
What a feeling that you give to me i can't ignore
Your my joy
You truly do enlighten me
Your all i ever want and need. You really got the best, the best of me
You’ve got me wide open ,so Lord keep it commin.
Yes,Truly and deep…I feel your majesty…so can you feel me,hear me?


You were sending signs from up above
You came down and you showed me love
I can look up to you and know
I’ve got everything inside, to survive, survive.

I never felt this way before
What a feeling that you give to me i can't ignore
Your my joy
You truly do enlighten me
Your all i ever want and need you got the best of me


Lord,You’ve got me wide open
And I'm diggin you so Lord keep it comin, yeah
Truly indeed sent from your majesty
tell me can you feel me, can hear me?

december 8 2007: change in me

i don't know how many people believe i'm avoiding them,but I am really not trying to.

I actually don't know what's going on with me lately...but for the first time in my life I feel as if I am just beginning to be liberated from everything that I feel has constricted me to a certain rountine or perspective. ha, for the most part...self constriction

It's not that I don't care what everyone is thinking lately,but finally how i feel matters to me.

i hate having that feeling that something feels great, amazing...right. But that fear that it's bad for me at the moment gets in the way of the good things about it. the fear of being let go perhaps? or being not enough of a satisfaction for someone you care about is always a disappointment,right? I want to be enough where you don't have to look anywhere else and that's the only way i would share my entire being with someone.

" i don't want to stop...i don't give a damn what they think. i want you now or this present moment." haha, sounds bad when you put in such a blunt matter,but that's how i feel about many things lately.

And at the same time, i am enjoying that freedom of just worrying about myself daily instead of what people expect of me. It's refreshing in some peculiar way.

i'm changing and i feel the change...i'm not new it's just a new me that the public just hasn't gotten a real taste of. I'm just more open with my feelings to the point i am a bit more outgoing and prob more of an asshole,haha.

And I am really proud of myself that I am trying to map out what I want to do with my life in the near future- in a mental, spiritual, physical, and career wise mannerism.


by the way, life seems to be moving pretty fast these days and i can't wait to have a break from schoo & the rest of my worriesl...soon. But is it really a break or will i fall back into old ways and habits?

i hope not.so much has happen in the past few months...good and bad. i wonder what's next...
"the closest to heaven that i'll ever be and i don't want to go home right now...& i don't want the world to see because I don't think that they'll understand. when everything is meant to be broken I just want you to know who I am."~Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls


sry, it's just Iris was my favorite song when i was in middle school,but it makes much sense right now how I have been thinking lately.

wait,i'm not sorry.

letter i wrote to Anthony jan 2009

So, is it bad if I start just letting life go as it chooses to go? I am starting to accept that I have no remote control over my final destination...and it is more refreshing than scary. I just do what I set my mind to do, because I don't care about how I get there. I know, stick to being a good person because it's not about the reward or no reward, but about being purely good to be good. You always tell me that,but good people seem to finish last. I still believe good people finish last in this lifetime,but maybe beyond this world the rules are reversed. I despise asshole people. I seem to think about you everday and I wrote a feature article on you for some media class.I think it's one of the most beautiful things I have ever written about anything or anyone. It still needs some touching up to do but it's cool.

Anyways, I am going through changes again- i wonder where I'll be in the next few months. New Job, new place to call home, finally declaring a major. eh.

Oh, I met this intriguing young man down here- I think you would like him. He is very bright and fun to be around. He spits out random facts like you do...i think that's why i enjoy his company. He reminds me of you in some manners-but no one compares to you. Except, he is like a limbo friend. Sometimes he seems like a friend and other times he seems like he is falling for me. I mean, who wouldn't? haha...just kidding. But i think you would approve of him. I just don't know where I want to stand with him,but he treats me like I believe a man should treat a woman- respect, honesty and kindness. And I know guys think with their, ya know...he isn't an exception, but he still caters to the things that seemed to be missing in my previous endeavor with someone. That guy just wanted my body. Jesse seems to want all of me and that makes me want to make effort to like him for more than a friend...but if that's meant to happen it will?

I was walking from an outing with him back to my place and i must have had this dorky smile on my face because this random asian woman was like " why are you smiling...there is no one there," and she laughed and smiled at me. And i was like...huh, and I was happy because I was with him? nah...because I still like that asshole who doesn't want me back because he doesn't know how to be in a caring, loving atmosphere of dating. I wish one day that butt hole realized I would be there for him. But some things don't change and I can't stop my life for it. I have some big ideas i want to get to and school needs to hurry up. I am going to try to graduate earlier than expected. I have better ideas to toy with than sit in a classroom all day, on the real. However, Jesse seems like he will be a great friend- i have nothing to hide from him and I like that very much.

anyways, chrissy wants guy advice too, so ask the higher up for her? i don't need any help...i am content figuring out myself for now.

mom is okay...she really misses you. her facebook has you all over it. dad misses you too...he takes it more personal though. i have to check on jb...he is so quiet. But he is supposely visiting me soon. I love my lil family. Yes, you are my lil family and i expect no one but you to meet me when I get to the other side. I know I am safe when you're around. So, I'll be sure to find you soon enough. Love you. And yes, my life is still like that song Layla. And Yes, I really finally believe in God. Something made me realize that there is proof everywhere and I was too blind to see it before. I'll talk about it later though. Gotta go to bed...school tomorrow. hmm.

angry journals i have found that i wrote.

July 29,2008

yeah, again...i don't understand life. I don't understand why good people suffer and it seems jackass people go untouched.

for example, my brother is laying in the hospital because of things we can't control.
however, this jackass that i was dealing with bitch, whines and complains...has a bitchass attitude 24/7 and sometimes...the evil me wonders why nothing bad happens to him. He goes " i have my own problems to deal with," when even if we have problems he said he was/ is friends with my brother and should be a supportive friend not for me but my brother. And if you're wondering why we have issues- it's because he has a constant attitude and it's so immature and for petty reasons. no one wants to be or sleep with someone who gets mad when they don't have things exactly his or her way. you're 25 and act like a 12yr and even rebound girls are going to get fed up with that-but i am the bad guy when i speak the truth. And I am suppose to stay away until you get over me. sounds like another dumb plan of yours.

and yeah, i can be an asshole sometimes,but i am only like that after people mistreat me or step on my toes. I may be young and weigh a lil over 100 but i am no pushover. and i rather die standing than on my knees. point blank( my new favorite word).

life is strange though...but i still remain to hold a smile on my face. not because i am happy but because even when life sucks ass...i still know i'm alive and I'll survive,usually when bullshit happens i find a way to make it. and i remember being a lil girl i wanted to grow up so fast- but being an adult isn't all it's cracked up to be. I now find the happiest i ever have been in life was when i was a lil girl...about late elementary to early middle school age.

And i must say it's hard to grow up.

And i know i get a lil distant sometimes- like i need a break from everything...but i still remain to love my family and friends. I'd do anything for them...well my close friends and family. But i have learned the closer i get to people i fear losing them or getting hurt by the people i hope to least expect to hurt me-but sometimes that's inevitable and it's not fair to not trust people just because people have hurt you before.

And then it's my issue with God. I use to believe there was no place for me in this world. no reason to live- except to do bullshit standard things. money doesn't mean anything to me and i only pursue it in the belief it will help the people i love be more happy.

sometimes i wonder why things happen and cry to myself( i prefer to do than let people see me cry). And then i asked why things i loved most were being taken away from me,constantly.

People tell me never to question God. But I do question life and i don't believe anything is wrong with questioning.If no one questioned things where would we be? still believing the world is flat. Still having Nazi People killing people for no reason. Still having people eat and drink at different places based on the pigmentation of one's skin.

And the night I asked God or whomever I pretain to question and ask for help for why bullshit seems to follow my family and others I love. And the weirdest thing happen july the 12th 2008, 9:00pm my green Bible, that i got the day I graduated highschool...Gold inscription of my name fell open and it opened up to psalms...i forget what page but i had it as my facebook status awhile ago.

It stated to let go of worries and have faith in God and all adversaries will be confused and shocked when they believe they have brought you down God will find a way to help you out and not give up.

It's the reason I don't cry when I see my brother in the hospital because i have set my faith in him. Blind faith,but it's still faith.

I hold faith that moving to d.c won't be an mistake. I mean,baltimore is okay...maybe come back here to start a family or something because Maryland seems like a nice place to raise up a lil family...but i hope that's a way from now. Yes, i wouldn't mind a family one day- when i meet a go-getter, non crybaby guy, smart, a good sense of humor, not a whore... all that good stuff.

right now i am just motivated to make some young money, until i sweat money...360. and i seat and brainstorm about it. it would sure make life a lil bit comfortable,but it's not exactly happiness.

But anyways, it seems everyone has their own bs to deal with-someway,somehow.

But on the bright side of things...i am getting better at controlling my anger.
I laugh at cnn black america- and wonder why people are so fascinated by black people.
and why white people don't get why black people are so angry.
i don't even hate people by groupings anymore because if i did i would hate alot of people.

I would hate black men...but not all are jackasses or punkass crybabies.
Not all white people are selfish scavengers destroying the world.
Not all people are annoying religious fanatics.
not all women are whores.
not all rich people are bad.
not all poor people are a waste of life.
not all cats are evil.
not all children are brats.
not all people are emo.

you just have to see people for whom they are-one person at a time. and that's a task in itself.

But anways...here i'll predict some stuff:
in a couple of yrs baltimore will be the baltimore it use to be-"what white fleet? we want our city back,"

the month of november there's going to be a huge riot whether it swings one way or another.

i am still going to say asshole things and search for the truth.

i'm still going to think it's funny.

and i still will remain to say kick my ass to anyone who doesn't like what i do, say, or whom i spend my time with.

and the innocent are still going to perish in this corrupted world.

BUT WITH THAT SAID...don't forget to smile. it's cold,but this is life. and no, nobody has to be a jackass...we choose to be. Yet, life's still sweet at its basic form. And yes, i still believe i'm unique and you'll never meet anyone remotely like me.

yes, honesty is harsh but it's the best way to be...saves alot bullshit later.